Mount Sutro is a natural rain forest in San Francisco, home to eucalyptus and pine and drenched with the fog and wind that comes in off the nearby Pacific. The UCSF hospital is built into the side of this hill, and the windows of the hospital seem scant barrier to the vividly animating hillside, where sunlight ignites the motion in the early morning and the movement increases with intensity, even frenzy, as the day progresses. The spirit inside and the life outside meld into a single rhythm of coming and going.
This is an intimate story of my husband’s illness and death, and how I imagined his gradual passage out into the space of the forest, the garden, the growing heart of it all. I made these images purely caught up in those days with Mel. I hope his loving nature and the love and tenderness of all those around us come through in my pictures. I hope they are convincing enough in the ways of poetry and suggestion to reach beyond just one person or one family

Viewing Proposal
The images in this series are all digital stills, but are meant to be shown on screen as a series of sequential images, something of a cross between a stop-motion animation and a slide show. This is a proposal for a viewing arrangement, with a place where visitors can sit and watch the images in a quiet, meditative way.

this is the bed

the bed, Mel, soft plants

wind-swept

shifting realities

getting out of bed

out of the bed but still in the hospital

more outside than inside

out, walking

new landscape

happy to be hiking

outside, but what's the bed doing here

back into the hospital for "just one more test"

tests

tests

leaving the hospital

coming home, to our garden

back home, in the garden

in the garden, Guan Yin

passing

passing

passing

somehow we're back here at the hospital, trying to leave from another side

barely enough light

trying to cross this shattering bridge

so much at once

deeper into the forest

collapse

hardly enough

without determination

at the edge of the forest

can this be so green

inside and outside

woodland

all in motion

into a new landscape

new journey

passage

visitors

the scene

still seen